Sitting up!

Penny is sitting up all by herself now! I can't believe it. Time flies by so fast!

Guilt

I stopped breastfeeding Penny after she was a month old.  I just didn't ever have enough milk and she was losing weight at an alarming weight.  I tried using an SNS to help things get going and I also took medicine that makes you lactate.  Unfortunatly, the medicine also makes you depressed.  After having a baby with crazy hormones, they medicine did not make me feel good.  I had to make the very tough decision to stop breastfeeding.  I guess it was the right decision.  I was able to be a better mom and Penny started getting the nutrition that she needed to be healthy.  However, I still have massive feelings of guilt for not be able to breastfeed her.  I guess it's always there, it just doens't always bother me.  Whenever, I see the bottles in the fridge at daycare with the blue tape (which means breast milk) or hear antoher mom talking about how much they love breastfeeding and how much better it is for babies I feel absolutely awful.  It's all I can do not to break down and cry.  Almost everyone I know was able to breastfeed their baby.  I really wish I could have and now looking back I wondering if there was more I could have done.  Did I give up too early or not try hard enough?  I can't go back now, I just don't know how to get over it.  I can only hope that time will take away these feelings...