Sitting up!

Penny is sitting up all by herself now! I can't believe it. Time flies by so fast!

Guilt

I stopped breastfeeding Penny after she was a month old.  I just didn't ever have enough milk and she was losing weight at an alarming weight.  I tried using an SNS to help things get going and I also took medicine that makes you lactate.  Unfortunatly, the medicine also makes you depressed.  After having a baby with crazy hormones, they medicine did not make me feel good.  I had to make the very tough decision to stop breastfeeding.  I guess it was the right decision.  I was able to be a better mom and Penny started getting the nutrition that she needed to be healthy.  However, I still have massive feelings of guilt for not be able to breastfeed her.  I guess it's always there, it just doens't always bother me.  Whenever, I see the bottles in the fridge at daycare with the blue tape (which means breast milk) or hear antoher mom talking about how much they love breastfeeding and how much better it is for babies I feel absolutely awful.  It's all I can do not to break down and cry.  Almost everyone I know was able to breastfeed their baby.  I really wish I could have and now looking back I wondering if there was more I could have done.  Did I give up too early or not try hard enough?  I can't go back now, I just don't know how to get over it.  I can only hope that time will take away these feelings...

Growing fast

I can't believe how fast Penny is growing! She is getting bigger and fatter everyday! She is able to look at more things in color and farther away too. I thought it would be awhile before she was able to lay on the floor and play but here she is at 8 weeks old!
She can do this for about 20 minutes!! So fun!

One month portrait

Fall Foliage Day!

Today, we loaded up and drove to the mountains to look at the aspen trees.  It was so beautiful!  It was a nice relaxing drive.  We drove up highway 285 towards Fairplay.  We made a couple stops along the way to take pictures and enjoy the fresh air.  Penny did wonderful!  We stopped once to feed her.  She slept while she was in the car and was pretty awake when we stopped to get out. We met another family with a baby and took pictures of each other!  On the way home, we stopped at the Yard House in Golden for dinner, drinks, and the Broncos game.  It was an amazing day!

At the start of Guanella Pass.  We didn't go very far because it was a very bumpy dirt road and we were afraid of jostling Penny too much.

Off the side of 285.

At the end of the day happy as can be!